Ebb and Flow

Life seems to ebb and flow. For a season everything is peaceful and there really doesn't seem to be any hurry in anything. The sand is smooth, the sound of the waves is relaxing. Other times life is in complete chaos and I find myself running frantically accomplishing nothing. Right now I am not sure if life is ebbing or flowing, but it is wild. The waves are crashing and it is time to either stand and enjoy the cold crash or run to the shore and hope to escape. Once one has experienced the cold crash, often times they long for it again. Why is that? I love to have control, and right now things are out of control. Too crazy!!! Oh, this is only a season. Maybe soon it will ebb or flow the other way and everything will be peaceful again. Maybe tomorrow?

Too much Napoleon

I love Napoleon Dynamite. I know the movie has been out for some time now, but I never cease to laugh at his candid comments and blunt life. My two boys love Napoleon as well. My oldest son Kevin, could give Napoleon a run for the presidency skit with his dancing techniques. He has the moves! My youngest son Tucker, who is only 2 1/2, loves Napoleon as well, only he has a bit of trouble saying Napoleon Dynamite. It sounds similar just a little mumbled. I didn't realize how much Tucker had watched the movie until today. I was working on the computer at home intent upon my emails, when Tucker with his curly sandy hair came up to me with his hand in his pocket ( he loves when his pants have REAL pockets) and said, "Do you want some of my tots?" I nearly fell off my chair. We had not watched the movie for days and we had not made any reference to Napoleon that morning. He must have thought, "Oh, I have a pocket, Napoleon has a pocket and he keeps his tots in his pocket. I could pretend I have tots in my pocket." I love it!!! He is so fun! Yes, Tucker and Napoleon!

I feel so good.

Tonight I feel like life just seems to envelope me like a warm blanket. There is peace in my life. The day has been chaotic and frustrating, but tonight the sky cleared, and there is peace again. My husband is wonderful, my kids are so full of life, my home is under control, and work is fun. I can't always say that everything is great, but tonight, it is! Thank you God that there are times in life when we can smile and see a glimpse of your peace. Life should be a lot lighter than I make it. Thank you for this chance to smile and see life as wonderful!

Lasso the moon

Tonight as we sat on our back porch, my little two year old son Tucker came running out, "Mommy, the moon!" "Yes, Tucker, it's pretty isn't it," I replied. This is a nightly observation that he makes. As he stood excited and amazed at the sight of the moon, I continued checking my email not thinking that anything was different tonight than any other night. His next reply made me stop typing and marvel at his amazing mind.
"I get my tractor out of the barn and get the moon down." In his tiny little mind he was sure that he could get the moon down. He continued to pull on Darren's arm and request, "I get my moon down." I am not sure how the tractor was going to help in the process, but it was really not an impossibility to him.
I pray his dreams always stay that big and that he really believes them.

11 months

It has been 11 months since Darren and I began the journey of Exit 59. Exit 59 is the name of the church plant that we are doing. Yes, it is not the typical name for a church, but it fits. We are at Exit 59 off of I-69 in Indiana. A bit obvious.

Church has become fun for me again. My life has changed. I used to hate church. It didn't seem to resemble the church that I read about in Acts when people were on fire for God and really loved each other. It seemed more like a social center where people were seen and were busy. Now church is real to me again.

Today was our first Sunday to have two services. It was incredible! Why does two services matter? It was just a milestone. Not that numbers really matter, but the energy there was so exciting. People were passionate and excited about the new year and what was going on.

I will remember today. It was very special. I love church again. I love doing ministry when it isn't about performance and when it isn't about me. It is all about what God is doing. This sounds clicheish, but it is true. I have really had a change of heart and am loving it! Oh, and by the way, we are teaching through the book of Acts this fall!

Help my Friend!

Freedom. What does that mean? Trapped in misery. I know that there are straps connected to me that I cannot untie. I get a tiny glimpse of where I could be without these straps, yet the vision is like a mirage and quickly fades. Some are trying to untie the straps, while others are retying them as quickly as they come off. Away! I just want to be away. Where do I go to find freedom? Where do I run to be alone?

Safety. What does that mean? I have played the games and the parts of what others wanted me to play. I have been their puppets. Now it is my turn to run and be me. Who is me? This person hidden deep inside. At times I hear her crying out. She only speaks for a moment. Then she is quickly silenced by the other players. Where is it safe for her to come out?

Tomorrow. What does that mean? It has been my answer for many days. Tomorrow it will be better. Tomorrow I will stand up. Tomorrow I will escape. But tomorrow has not come. When the sun comes up, the day begins and I am once again in today. Tomorrow will have to be tomorrow.

Life. What does that mean? Is this what life is? Is life just surviving and pretending? I see others who know what life is. Why can't I get to where they are? Won't somone untie these straps? Please let me run! I need Freedom! I need Safety! I need Tomorrow! I want Life!

I forget!!!!!!

Notice my blog's web address. nancycampbell2! This is because I can't remember my password to my other Blog! How could I be so dumb? Oh, well. Goodbye nancycampbell.blogspot.com.

My friend

My friend Christin, is so great! She always makes me laugh! Even though over 3000 miles seperate us, will still keep in contact. Christin describes a situation like no one else . Like today, in reference to her husband's former boss, she used the word "troll". Who uses the word "troll"?
After seeing Napoleon Dynamite, she referred to getting her husband "some skills". If you knew her husband, you would know that he is not what comes to mind when picturing someone who needs "skills". I still laugh and laugh every time I think about that.
There are people in life who think like you do, and laugh at the same things that you do. They are sometimes few and far between, but when you find them, they are friends always.